25 Weeks - Things I Love (and HateDislike) about Pregnancy

What I love about being pregnant:

- feeling my baby kick, especially when I tap my belly and he taps back
- having an excuse to take midday naps
- after a midnight bathroom visit, the little one gives me a few reassuring kicks before I fall back to sleep
- shopping for baby clothes...for MY baby - not someone else's and not for my "maybe in the future..." box (most of which turned out to be girl's clothes - guess we'll have to try for another one after this little guy...)
- now that I'm showing strangers will smile at me for no reason and family members get even more excited about the baby
- watching my body change
- having a good excuse to boss people (mostly hubby) around - you don't expect me to lift/climb/exert/etc. myself do you?

What I hate dislike about being pregnant:

- acid reflux, gas, indigestion, stuffy/bloody nose and swollen ankles. Or should I say ankle - it only seems to effect my left one!?
- having to nap in the midday - I feel guilty
- waking up multiple times in the night to pee
- frustration about what baby stuff I should buy/ask for. Is a baby wipes warmer really necessary?
- it hasn't happened to me yet, but I fear strangers touching my belly without permission. Not that I would give them permission even if asked!
- fearing my body won't change back after giving birth (not that I expect an instant change)
- not being able to do somethings for myself. I want it done now and I want it done my way!

But in the end I AM really happy about being pregnant. It is amazing and wonderful to be growing another human being inside me. Sometimes it feels like science fiction. Sometimes it feels like something divine.

Budda Belly (week 24)

We are getting bigger. Hubby likes to rub my belly like I'm a Budda :) Hey if it brings us good fortune then keep rubbing...LOL

I haven't noticed any stretch marks yet (thank God!). But my belly is getting very itchy. My belly button has changed colour and looks dirty (or chocolaty). And I've been getting heartburn. Even if I just drink a glass of water!!

My mother-in-law clipped a small article about watermelon for me. It says that it is good for pregnant women. It contains B vitamins, which are good for baby's brain development. It contains folate which helps prevent birth defects like spina bifida. And though my diet and prenatal vitamin likely cover my needs in these areas I just had to have watermelon. A guilt free snack that is very thrist quenching on these warm summer days.

I continue to have small anxiety attacks about nothing in particular. I try not to take out my moodiness on innocent citizens, even if it feels good;)

I have been keeping up with my prenatal cardio workout, even though I'm sometimes bored. But it does feel good once I'm done. And with this city strike still on our local pool is closed. Bad timing! The water would feel great right now!

Hubby and I went to the Beaches on the weekend. I walked barefoot in the sand. I wore my sandals for some silly reason and found it hard to walk with them on. I managed to avoid any broken glass. The next day I could really feel the work out in my calves. Next time I will wear running shoes and hopefully the walk will be easier!!

I find it hard to believe we only have about 16 weeks left until we meet the little man. Part of me does want it to slow down. His little kicks are comforting. I know he's safe and comfortable in my belly. But then again it will be wonderful to see him. And to have my body back!!

23 weeks ALREADY!!!

I finally have a noticeable bump. My parents and Baba were very excited about this when I visited on the weekend. I'm still trying to figure out if I would say I am 5 months or 6. It seems to vary from each resource I check. The way I figure it I have 4 months to go - so I'm 5 months in. Does it really matter? ;)

(Sorry no pic this week. I forgot my camera in Richmond Hill!)

We saw the doctor yesterday. The little guy is doing great. I'm doing great. When I was weighed (I'll leave the details out on that, but I think I'm doing fine in that department - the actually number is just scary) my husband felt compelled to weigh himself. This made the doctor laugh. I'm about the same weight as he is now, even though I have stopped wearing his clothes (I am rounder after all).

Yesterday I looked at my feet and didn't recognize them. They were so swollen. I'm not good at sitting down and taking it easy sometimes. So I forced myself to sit with my feet elevated and everything looks normal again today.

I've been feeling a lot of stretching in the abs. I mentioned this to the doctor and she says its normal. It is just very uncomfortable when I am trying to get back to sleep at 2am!!

Three more weeks and I am officially in the third trimester. I cannot believe how fast time is going by. I am trying to enjoy every minute of it.

I guess our next big step before the big arrival is setting up the baby's room. New flooring. My mother-in-law is going to paint kitties on the walls (we can never have enough!!) And of course cleaning like a mad woman :)

A Different Topic

Happy Birthday to my big brother!!!!

We have to stop getting older. It's starting to scare mom!

I hope you have a wonderful day.

See you soon!

22 Weeks

Now that I am over the half way mark this baby is starting to really "kick" into my reality. I'm going to be somebody's mommy! My world as I know it will change forever. It's kind of terrifying - in a good way of course :)

I feel him kick everyday now. The little thumps are becoming more pronounced every week. I've heard that some women miss this after giving birth. I think I might too! It's comforting. When I feel him kick I know he's doing alright.

The baby shower last Sunday was nice. My 20 month old niece thought all the gifts with Elmo on them were for her. The games we played weren't too silly. And it was nice catching up with some people that I don't see too often. Of course, no one would believe that I am into my fifth month. Not every woman gets a big bump right away!!!

One week seemed to make a difference. To me at least. This is at 22 weeks. I'm wearing a non-maternity top that used to fit in a flowing manner, but now is almost getting a bit snug.


I am really starting to feel my belly stretching. And my belly button is starting to stick out. Minor discomfort there. I am really enjoying touching my own belly and am super thrilled when the baby kicks and I feel him inside and out.




I am really starting to think of labour and having the baby at home. Trying not to let my anxiety get the better of me. I'm not the only one to ever have a baby - I'm sure I'll do fine.

Next week, we go to the doctor. Again. These appointments really sneak up on me. June is almost over - already????? From what I understand I am going to be tested for gestational diabetes in the next couple of weeks. Really not looking forward to this. I'm not sure I'll be able to get down the super sweet drink I must have. Well, at least I sort of know what to expect.

Every Where I Look

I see pregnant women every where. I'm not sure if I'm just more aware because I'm part of the club. Or if 2009 is just a good fertile year. Or all the pregnant celebrities are having an influence (the last reason is admittedly a sad reason to be pregnant).

Today I am going to my husband's second cousin's baby shower. She is also having a boy. She's due in July. Though admittedly I feel awkward at social functions and I find some of these shower games really silly, I am looking forward to what gifts she gets so I can take mental notes for my own baby registry. I am also interested in comparing bumps. Will my bump be the same size at 8 months?

In our neighbourhood my husband and I are the more anti-social types. We say Hi and wave and that's about all. When we first learned we were expecting my hubby got more talkative and shared the news with a couple of the neighbours (the family that helps us take care of the outdoor cats). Now I feel every time I step outside they are checking out my belly, which at five months isn't all that big. I feel a bit uncomfortable, but at least they aren't groping at it - yet!

The neighbour did come over the other day to talk cats and try and gossip with us. And she asked how far along I was. "Oh I figured you were due in November!" Ah Ha! I was right, they were eyeballing my belly! I guess it's something I will have to deal with.

I am happy that I feel my baby boy kicking at regular times during the day. More often when I'm at rest. If I'm working I don't always feel him. However, on Friday I kept feeling little thumps for a few minutes, but everytime my mom would touch my belly he would stop. He's already testing the Gramma boundaries :)

We're Half Way There!

At week 20, time seems to be moving too fast as usual. Our boy is moving around a lot. Hubby finally felt him kick yesterday. It is very exciting.

Hubby has had a cold all weekend. I'm just praying that I don't get it. I have taken it as an excuse to relax a little more myself and to allow myself to wear yoga pants all weekend - even out of the house. I've been feeling pretty tired. At first I thought maybe I was getting sick too. Oh wait - I'm pregnant! My body is going through a heck of a lot. No wonder I'm exhausted. Sometimes it takes a few minutes to sink in again :)

I am determined to do my pregnancy aerobics three times a week. It helps with some of the discomforts, like my hands and feet swelling, backpain and shortness of breath. But then the discomforts help give me excuses for not doing it - I'm tired, achy or just plain lazy.

Well, I better get in gear.

I think he looks like me!

Except in this one he looks like Skeletor! :)


This one is the cutest - in my opinion anyway!

And finally we know

We had the ultrasound done yesterday. It seemed like the longest day. I felt like I did as a child on Christmas Eve. "Is it Christmas yet? Has Santa been here yet? When is he coming?"

This clinic was way better than the last. I don't know why we weren't just sent to this one for both. There was only one other person in the waiting room, as opposed to the Grand Central Station look of the other. It was VERY clean. And the staff were organized. My name was called right at 3pm on the button!

I changed into the paper gown with fancy belt. The Sonographer (named Honour - neat name) dumped a bunch of that gel on my belly and we were on our way. I got teary eyed when she started counting fingers and toes. It's real! I'm really having a baby!

I had to flip over a few times because the baby was hiding the right foot. I lay there fairly silently, only asking if I could get a print out (which I didn't have to pay for, and I got 5 pictures) and answering that we want to know the sex. Finally, she was done and called in my husband for the show. The baby is amazing! Spine is perfect. Even the skull, which we have a nice Halloween print-out of. Little heart pumping away.

"So, can you tell what the sex is?" I asked, trying to sound casual.

"Legally, I cannot say. However, if I leave the room I can't stop you from checking my notes."

Honour left the room and Hubby and I immediately scrambled for her desk. I think I was cross-eyed with excitement. I couldn't even see the piece of paper. Hubby had to point and said "I was right. It's a boy!"

When we got home we made our phone calls and sent our messages over the internet informing all those who wondered with us. My mom was a bit shocked. She was sure it was a girl. She's excited all the same.

I think hubby was secretly praying that at least one of our two planned children would be boys. He's the first male of his generation to have kids to carry on the family name. He kept saying "Now Grandpa can relax!"

Tomorrow I am working with mom. It's our work day with a big time gap between houses. As well as a Value Village. Now that we know what colours are safe we're going to have lots of fun!!!!

Darn it!

Got the date wrong...the clinic just called. My appointment is for tomorrow. Guess I'll have to wait another day!!!

The real present

Tomorrow is my birthday :) I have to keep reminding myself because I'm so absorb with the pregnancy sometimes nothing else matters.

I get the best present (so far) on Monday. We are going for the 2nd ultrasound and will hopefully be told the sex of the baby. Come on kid, cooperate with mommy and daddy :)

How I finally saw a change...

Sure it seems strange. My pants don't fit anymore. I'm finding it increasingly more difficult to move around like I used to i.e. popping out of bed, jumping up from a seated position. I just didn't think it was physically noticeable until I did a side by side comparison of my belly pics.

In the beginning...week 5

At week 12 there still wasn't too much change...

Then me and the baby started our growth spurt :)

Week 16...finally I don't look crazy wearing my maternity pants :P

Week 17

(these are the pants I belt up...I wonder if they're just bad pants or will they always slide off even when I get bigger?!!?)

Week 18

The belly is growing, but according to my husband I only look pregnant when I'm naked. I'm still in the in-between stage where my "normal" clothes are too small and most of the maternity clothes are still too big. I've tried wearing a belt on a pair of maternity pants I bought for work. It works until I have to bend, then the belt gets me in the gut. It also looks quite funny wearing my belt on the last notch.

I'm finding a bit of frustration staying thrifty whilst trying to find clothes that fit. Considering I'm only going to wear them for five (maybe six) more months I really don't want to spend $40-80 on a top or a pair of pants. I don't ever spend that amount on clothes I plan to wear for much longer.

I have been able to squeeze into my old swimsuit thus far, but I really think this is the last week I can get away with it.

I have been looking around for maternity swimsuits. I thought it wouldn't be a problem. Well, it's a problem. I searched Old Navy - where I bought my maternity jeans and cargoes. They have tons of swimwear for the whole family. But nothing for us pregos.

Online, however, the Old Navy.com site has maternity swimsuits "only available online". I thought, "fine, I'll order from the states...how bad can it be." Bad enough to not let Canadians order online.

I've checked Zellers and Walmart. Their maternity "sections" consist of one rack hidden somewhere in the plus-size section of the women's department. No sign of maternity swimsuits though.

The specialized maternity stores sell swimsuits for SEVENTY DOLLARS!!! Okay, some of you may think I'm cheap. But the last swimsuit I bought for regular use only cost me $25!!! Once again it's only for 5 months....

I've decided to take a trip to Walmart and try on a non-maternity tankini style swimsuit and see if I can get away with that. Keep your fingers crossed for me :)

16 Weeks...and counting

Sometimes it just doesn't feel like I'm pregnant. I think I'm just impatient. Of course when the time comes to "get the show on the road" I'll be begging for it all to slow down.

This is my belly so far. Feels bigger than it looks in the picture.



I have given up on my "normal" pants and have been wear maternity pants, even though this pair is still a bit big on me, they are more comfortable than squeezing into my old jeans. Some of which were a bit baggy on me to begin with, are now so tight I cannot do up the button.

The only real discomforts I've been experiencing are sore breasts, a bit of cramping (the baby is growing fast!) and frequent urination. The last of which I have learned to act on quickly, before I sneeze. Yes, I have had an accident which hubby thinks is hilarious!! HAHA! Oh, and nasal congestion which causes the sneezing. All normal, just slightly annoying.

My dreams have been quite vivid and memorable, which I love for the most part. Except last night I had a scary dream that I lost the baby and I didn't know what to do. My scheduled wake-up to pee was greatly appreciated after that one. I was so relieved that it was just a bad dream.

I also sometimes have dreams about smoking. I had smoked for over 15 years up until I got pregnant. Quitting I found easy at that point. Seeing pregnant women smoking makes me want to get violent (I'm a peaceful person - really!) The thought of putting all that crap into my baby really turned me off. The morning sickness helped keep the cursed things from me too. During my waking hours I barely think of smoking. I'm not tempted and want to remain smoke free for life.

In my dreams however I am tempted. My dream self is convinced that one little puff won't hurt. My dream self also bums smokes from people who in reality have quit smoking too. Crazy!!! I guess after all those years the habit will stick with me one way or another. Better that its only in my dreams.

Everything seems to be going as planned. My last doctors visit was good. Baby and mommy are doing great. Heard his/her heartbeat again. And the next scheduled ultrasound is at a different clinic than the last - Thank God! If baby co-operates we will find out the sex and I can stop addressing my bump as Peanut.

For now I've got birthdays galore to look forward to (brother-in-law, nephew, Baba, mom and me) as well as mine and hubby's first wedding anniversary. May is a busy month.

Happy Mother's Day!

Happy Mother's Day moms of the world. Though this is not always a happy day for some, for those who do enjoy it ..greetings!

The other day while shopping for Cards for our moms, hubby asked "I'm waiting for next year to do Mother's Day for you, right?" "Yes, dear!" LOL. He's so sweet. I know of some men who will not acknowledge Mother's Day to their wives (the mother of their children). So I really appreciate the sentiment, even if we are still 5 months away from being parents.

I am absolutely sure now that I have been feeling the baby move. S/He feels like bubbles in my belly. Bouncing around noticeably at least once a day. Which has prompted me to talk to my belly more often now. "What are you doing in there, kid?"

Things are moving along quickly now. The changes seem to occur daily now. Even my belly and the way my clothes fit. I have to experiment daily with my wardrobe. (Nope, can't get away with those pants anymore). Soon I will be wearing my Yoga pants to the grocery store. I know it seems acceptable to wear these things out of the house, but I've always felt like I was wearing my PJ's. Maybe because I do wear them to bed:P.

I'm going to see if I can get a decent baby bump photo and I will post it soon.

Again, Happy Mother's Day all!!

Week 15

Things seem to be moving fast and slow at the same time. As I am now 15 weeks pregnant and the baby is developing quickly, I'm still not really showing. I am starting to get a slight shaping of things to come I'm happy to say. But I still do not look pregnant. I don't even really feel pregnant. Without the nausea and tiredness I'm normal feeling again. Yes, I will enjoy it while it lasts.

Friday, when I got home from work I went through all my spring/summer clothes and tried everything on. Of my non-maternity clothes I found 2 pairs of pants and a couple of shirts that I can still get away with for now. Desperately I tried on a pair of Hubby's pants. They JUST fit!! Eeek!

I ran for the measuring tape and found that I have gained a few inches in the bust and waist, which I am happy about, except that I have no clothes. Seems my obsession with jeans and baby t's has come back to haunt me. No wonder I was looking like that stereo-typical fat plumber (big belly hanging out the front. Butt cleavage out the back).

As luck would have it my tax return came in. Time to go shopping! As most people who know me will note I am thrifty (some may say cheap, but not to my face :P). I can't remember the last time I bought myself new clothes from the mall. Well, desperate times call for desperate measures.

I found out that Old Navy has a maternity section (at select stores). It's not a huge selection, but the prices are decent compared to "maternity stores". I bought a pair a jeans with the atrocious stretchable belly panel. A pair of black cargoes with elastic waist band and draw string. And a maternity tank top in black. I figured I could wear it under the tops I have that might come a bit short on the belly. Or just on its own when its warm (covered in my 60 spf sunblock).

I'm happy with my purchases. Clothes that fit and will grow with me. I didn't want to get carried away though. I want to see how long they will grow with me :) And spending $100 in one shot was a bit scary for me. But maybe I could get used to it. I did resist my temptation to buy this really cute infant t-shirt. It was white with little ruffles on it. But we still don't know the sex, and I didn't want to tempt fate.

My second prenatal visit to the doctor is tomorrow morning. I hope I can convince her to send me to a different ultrasound clinic. I'm also trying to think of questions to ask her. I do think of things sometimes, but if I don't write them down right away I forget. Another symptom I have - pregnancy brain!!!

Maybe next week I will have a picture of my bump...

Week 14

We are well on our way now. I'm now 14 weeks and 2 days pregnant. I am still not showing, but expanding just the same. Most of my pants do not fit me. Yet the 2 pairs of maternity pants I've bought (from thrift stores ;)) are still falling off me.

My husband and mom keep laughing at me because I keep saying "I want a baby bump". Part of it is for the sheer joy of looking pregnant. The other reason is so I don't look like I'm gaining weight for no reason. Yes there is some vanity in this humble mother-to-be.

I am still suffering some evening nausea. It doesn't happen everyday, but its still annoying when it does.

My energy levels have picked up. Now that I have the energy I'm running around tidying and sorting and cleaning. Trying not to over work myself, but I think the nesting instinct is kicking in. (It does seem early for that though, doesn't it?)

I'm not 100% sure, but I think I have felt the baby move. The sort of feeling "they" call "quickening". Little fluttery feelings in my belly. Of course, I'm trying not to get too excited. I could just be imagining it.

Well, I've got some running around to do today. My license and plate stickers need to be renewed. Before I do that though I have to have an emissions test done (stupid Gosh Damned rule!!!!). At least its booked and I have the day off to take care of it all. I do think its cool that for the next five years if I do show anyone my license I can say "I was pregnant in that picture!" So whether I'm glowing or looking bloated I have an excuse!!! :P

Hmmmm...maybe after all that Hubby will take me shopping for some pants that fit??!!!

Week 13

Almost half way through week 13 and we think we've told everyone we can about the pregnancy. My parents and brother have seen the ultrasound picture, and are getting geared up. I'm glad I have it, because I still do not look pregnant (which I keep being told I should be grateful for). So the picture is proof. I almost want to pin it to my t-shirt.

I thought the nausea was going away, but it hasn't. It lingers at night time forcing me to sleep so I don't have to deal with it. I guess I'm lucky that I can sleep through it. I'm really hating the 3am bathroom breaks, because it is still taking me at least an hour to fall back to sleep. Plus, my getting out of bed confuses the cats. They think it's breakfast time. Little piggies.

I found a Kathy Smith Pregnancy workout DVD at Zellers the other day. It was only $4.99. SOLD! I've worked out with it twice so far. I must stick with it, or I fear I will be too lazy during labour :)

I've been forcing myself to avoid the baby clothes section at Value Village for now. Since I don't know the sex of the baby, I don't want to spend a bunch of cash on thing we might not need. Of course this hasn't stopped my mom. The soon-to-be first-time grandma has already bought a few pink items. She is certain it's a girl.

I've also been forcing myself not to empty out the computer room (soon to be nursery). This would certainly drive my husband crazy. Anyway, I spend my mornings at the computer and the basement is still too cold for me. But I can't help but get ahead of myself sometimes.

I am looking forward to each new day and experience. I almost can't wait to feel the little one kicking. And to see if s/he looks more like me or hubby.

Our Little Peanut

After a long wait to finally have the ultrasound done, my husband and I walked into the clinic and it was packed. I figured "Fine. They must know what they are doing. We have an appointment. I'll be in soon." Little did I know that after an hour with a full bladder that I would still be waiting. I think Hubby's hormones are raging lately too. He doesn't like to put up with B/S, especially when he saw how uncomfortable I was getting.

He approached the counter to see where my requisition form was, to get an idea how much longer we'd have to wait. The morons had my form in with the new arrivals. Meanwhile, an older lady sat beside me. She noticed it was my husband causing a stir and reassured me that in this clinic that's the only way to get service.

Hubby told them we've been waiting for an hour. They tried to convince us that we just got there (GRRRRRRRRR). He demanded the requisition back so we could go somewhere else. They refused. But magically my name was the next called. (I did begin to wonder why we had scheduled an appointment if they didn't seem to follow any sort of schedule?!!??)

I had to wait for an hour with a full bladder but was happy to finally see the baby. The technician seemed a bit nervous (like hubby would yell are her), but she was nice. I watched her face as she scanned my belly and she didn't cringe so I knew everything was good. She showed hubby the baby. And then my turn. I couldn't believe how much detail I could see. Way more than you can see on the printed picture. I saw the heart fluttering away. I even saw the little fingers.

The technician had a hard time getting a good shot because the baby kept moving around. Hyper like daddy ;)

I'm so happy the baby is doing well. With each test and doctor's visit "Peanut" seems more of a reality.

Next time, I'm asking my doctor to recommend a different clinic!!! Hopefully, baby will be active again and we can see if its a boy or a girl!

Week 12

Well this is my belly so far. I look like I've gained weight, rather than "showing" pregnant. But that's fine :) As long a no one comments on it!

My clothes are getting tight. I had bought a top last year that I thought I could wear early on in pregnancy. It looks maternity, but isn't. It is an empire waist style top. Well, I wanted to wear it yesterday, but when I put it on and raised my arms slightly the empire waist popped under my chin...LOL. Seems my boobs are getting in the way of my cute tops. I opted for a tailored blouse with darting. Looked a bit small, but I think I got away with it.

It's gonna take me longer and longer to find anything to wear. At least anything cute. I could just opt for Hubby's clothes. How long will that last though. He is not that much bigger than me!?!?!? It's time to go shopping...yippeeee!!!

I still have that funny taste in my mouth. But I'm not vomiting when brushing my teeth anymore. In fact I only feel ill if I haven't had my before bedtime snack. Usually, a bowl of cereal.

I have been feeling light headed at times. Supposedly this is normal. I just try not to move around too fast.

And now that it finally feels like Spring I'm trying to walk more. Hubby and I went down to the Beaches on Good Friday and walked the boardwalk. I was almost out of breath by the time we got back to the car. Really need more cardio!!!!

We are going to see Hubby's family today for Easter dinner. Some of them don't know we're pregnant yet, so we'll tell them today. Yes, I wrote WE'RE pregnant. Hubby gets upset if I don't totally involve him in the announcement. I guess he did help ;)

I'm getting excited/nervous about the ultrasound on Tuesday. I forgot to ask if I get a picture of it to take home. If I do, its gonna be scanned and posted ASAP!!!

First Meeting

I met my Ob/Gyn today. She is really nice and easy to talk to. I'm glad my sister-in-law was able to recommend her to me.
Some really good advice that she gave me was to not listen to EVERY woman's advice or experience with pregnancy or childbirth. She's had some patients panicked by what others have told them. I was already on board with this. My ears are sieve like when it comes to advice and who I take it from. She also told me not to watch those baby story like shows for the same reason. I probably will continue, but I realize my experience will not be the same as those women on TV. :)
I have gained more weight than I had thought. The doctor didn't mention it, so I guess I'm doing alright.
I made a special request today. I asked if we could use the fetal doppler to hear the baby's heart beat. I made it clear to my doctor that I understand we might not hear it and that doesn't mean anything bad. She let us have a go. And we heard the little heart pumping away. I managed not to cry for joy. It has made the baby more real to me now. My husband and I aren't calling my belly "Peanut". There's actually a little being in there. Now I just keep thinking about how exciting all this is.

Next week is the ultrasound...hoping we'll get a nice view.

Week Eleven

Just when I thought morning sickness was going away I had a few bad days where brushing my teeth made me vomit! At least I was okay for my dental appointment, where my gums bled "like a normal pregnant woman!" But at least the teeth are clean and healthy and cavity free. And I didn't gag or barf in front of anyone :)

Lately, I have been suffering with insomnia and mood swings. Maybe one is causing the other?! My insomnia is strange - for me anyway. I pass out as soon as my head hits the pillow around 9:30pm. Usually around 1 or 2 am I get up to pee, of course. And then I cannot get back to sleep. I'm still tired. I'm not particularly worried about anything. I'm usually in a good mood. But I will be lying in bed wide awake until about 4am. (I estimate. After 3am I refuse to look at the clock anymore.) I've heard it is common for pregnant women. I'm just not used to it. I'm the type of person who used to be able to sleep through the night and my alarm clock.

During the day I have been having mood swings, which I was somewhat prepared for. I had usually been quite moody when I was suffering PMS. But now my loved ones are unprepared. Any second I could snap for no reason. Some times they bring it on - I'm pretty sure of it. They will chuckle at me saying that I am being bossy! Well, that just pushes me into bitch mode! If they would just do as I say without any comment I would be fine...LOL! Oh and then I cry because I think they don't love me anymore...or some other crazy notion.

I know "they" say it is the hormones that make pregnant ladies moody. I'm thinking if I could just sleep a straight 8 hours or so I might be fine.

I am meeting my OB/GYN on Wednesday for the first time. I'm having mixed feelings about that. I want to meet her and I have questions that beg to be answered. But I'm also due for a pap :/ Thrilling!!!

I'm really looking forward to next week...the first ultrasound!!!!

Does pregnancy make you psychic?

When we first found out we were pregnant my hubby and I decided it was a boy. My parents decided it was a girl. Don't ask me how we came up with this. Just a silly fun thing to predict.

However, in my dreams I will see a little girl climbing onto my lap. Or my dream last night (all I can remember of it) I was told its a girl.

Can pregnancy dreams predict the gender?

Week Ten

My first day of week ten. Yipee! The morning sickness is subsiding, though that awful taste still appears at some point during my days. I'm having to pee a lot more. I woke up twice last night. I'm normally a heavy sleeper who doesn't get up for anything until morning. Guess I can consider it preparation for getting up to feed and change the baby in about 30 more weeks.

I weighed myself on a reliable scale on Friday (pre-pregnancy it always read the same as my doctors scale). All of a sudden I am 5 pounds heavier. According to the books and websites I should gain about 3 lbs in the first trimester. Hope I haven't over done it. There's no turning back now :D I guess if I'm gaining too much the doctor will tell me in a week or so. For now I'll blame my hubby for taking me out for food too much. And indulging me in my craving for McCain Deep and Delicious cake. Darn commercials!!!

Although I feel the weight gain, especially when trying to squeeze into my jeans, Hubby claims not to notice any growth in me other than the breasts. However, mom and Baba have noticed my hips widening. It's all expected, but what I'm looking forward to is my baby bump. I'll be posting pictures on first siting!

I Peed on a Stick

A long anticipated has finally occurred in my life. I am pregnant. I think I've been wanting to be a mom since I was a baby. It still seems unreal, as I am only 9 weeks along. So I'm not showing yet. And I haven't gotten an ultrasound yet.

I did the home pregnancy test on February 17th. The day after Ontario's new Family Day holiday. I was tempted to take it on Family Day, but more than a few times since we've started trying I have taken test, that turn out negative and then to my disappointment Aunt Flow would come along. But of course I couldn't wait THAT much longer ;)



For some reason I couldn't get a clear shot. But there are two lines there. It was still a bit faint, which made me wonder... but I had seen so many definite negatives before.

For the past 3 or 4 weeks it has certainly been confirmed with the event of morning sickness. Or I should say all day long sickness including an awful soap like taste in my mouth. It hasn't been as bad as some women get. I rarely actually toss my cookies. The thing I find strange is that through the nausea I still have an appetite. Just some things I can't stand the thought of...like chicken. But my homemade egg mcmuffins seem to be a miracle. They keep the nausea at bay and they taste wonderful. I just have to make sure I don't eat too many.

I have only gained a pound or two, but my breast have jumped a whole cup size. I'm small to begin with, but these things are really in my way. Especially at bedtime.

I'm looking forward to my first meeting with the obstetrician on April 8th. And my first ultrasound a week later.

More updates to come...

What a year...

for weddings. My wedding. Now my brother's wedding. Friend's of friends weddings (I've seen announced on Facebook). Must be a lucky year:)

Today we travel from Scarborough to Richmond Hill. We pick up Baba and keep on truckin' all the way to Huntville. I have never been, but my parents and Brother say it is just gorgeous. Low population. Beautiful landscape. Almost makes me want to move there...until I remember Ontario winters. Toronto's snow is bad enough for me. If I were up north in the winter I would be a shut-in. And that's just depressing.

Anyway, my brother marries his intended today. Since my wedding a question has been going thru my mind.

"Is it better for a couple to live together before marriage? Or should they wait until its legal?"

Of course it is a personal opinion type question. I'm just curious. My hubby and I lived together then got married (we had already intended on marriage, we just waited for the right time). My brother and his bride are officially moving in tonight after their wedding. Of course this way might make the wedding night more exciting ;)

What do you think? Is it better for a couple to live together before marriage? Or should they wait until its legal?

My (Frugal) Wedding

While preparing for my wedding this past May, I realized how expensive it can be to put on. I vowed to keep it quaint and not start our marriage in debt.

Of course there are the usual expenses that you can't get around if you want things legal. The Marriage License in Ontario costs $130. The officiant we hired cost $300, which seemed to be the average price when I researched online.

We had the ceremony and reception at my in-laws house. We limited the guest list to include parents, siblings, grandparents and aunts and uncles. Very few friends, but we had a few in there.

My mom was the Matron of Honour. She bought her dress at Value Village. Value Village is a great starting place for formal wear, even wedding gowns. I mean how often have these dresses really been worn? Do you want to spend $100 - $1000? Or $10 - 100?

I did splurge on my dress. But even that was only around $300.


My groom bought his suit jacket, shirt and tie at Value Village for about $50. Pants from Walmart for about $20. Handsome groom = Priceless!!!

Wedding favors and DIY invitations from the dollar store. I think they turned out great. And we probably saved at least $200.


The food was taken care of by my Baba and Uncle. Roast beef and Chicken in White sauce. Guest could have both if they wanted. And everyone seemed to enjoy the food!! This was their gift to me.

Booze and drinks were taken care of by my mother in-law and my mom.

Originally, I was going to make the wedding cake myself. Then I realized it has been years since I've made a cake. And to get it beautiful would be REALLY stressful for me. So, we bought these cakes at a local bakery. It was actually in the display window when I first went to the bakery to ask about wedding cakes. I saw it and made my decision right away. Two cakes for around $100. Vanilla with custard filling. Delish!!!


The photography was gifted to us by my Wonderful Aunt M and my hubby's Aunt S. I'm still waiting for the bulk of the photos to be edited. It's rumoured that each photographer took about 700 photos each. I might be waiting awhile - LOL.

Our Honeymoon was in Niagara Falls. Since my hubby and I usally don't work at the beginning of the week we booked a room starting on Sunday and we got a deal for booking it online.

I estimate that the whole wedding/reception and even including the honeymoon cost about $3000. Not bad at all considering I've heard of some taking out mortgages to pay for their &100000 weddings - Fools!! Or maybe I'm just lucky to have so many talented and generous people in my life.

Zip....

Time is flying as usual. The wedding went as planned in May. The weather even cooperated nicely. We've now been married 2 months (tomorrow, to be precise). Yipee for us! Hey and we still want to be married to each other - another bonus LOL.

Summer is zipping passed me again. We have gone to the Science Center a couple of weeks ago. I hadn't been there since I was little, on a field trip with my school. It was pretty interesting. I found out that my Hubby can tell when I lie. And that he is full of water (and I thought it was something else??!!!!).

The thing that troubled me at the Science Center were the kids. Don't get me wrong - Kids are normally great. However, a lot of these kids have no manners or respect for people around them. My Hubby and I would be checking out an exhibit and a kid would come flying over and push his way in, therefore pushing us out. If I had ever done anything like that when I was little my parents would have told me off (or worse - but parents don't spank anymore, do they?). Possibly even made me apologize to the people I had pushed (despite age). But these kids - I didn't even see their parents. I do know that their are good kids out there...I just wish there were more of them.

Anyway, I was driven into the rainforest.




Next planned destination : Huntsville for my brother's wedding, then The Royal Ontario Museum with mumsy and Hubby.

Time is Flying

Now with Christmas, New Years and V-day over with, we can now concentrate on wedding plans. We have picked up our rings already. Simple white gold bands. I'm really excited to wear it. For now they sit in their box in the drawer.

I still need to get my accesories and underwear (head band,control top panties and a strapless bra) and shoes. I hate shoe shopping!!! But luckily my man isn't that much taller than me. I get to wear flats if I want to.

A lot of things we must wait to do. Like getting a marriage license. I can't believe they are only good for 3 months.
I have already printed out the Ontario application from this site Getting Married

I'm getting quite excited!!

Other than work and wedding plans (and minor car repairs) I've just been waiting for Spring to spring.

Just in time for Christmas

We finally got around to painting the bedroom. With the colder weather people seem to be quite sluggish lately. But we got ourselves in gear and painted away.
Here are some pics of how it looked before
(on a previous post)

That green was the bane of my existence. I would wake up every morning in a bad mood having to look at it. But now...

A happy colour. I've been wanting a bedroom this colour for years.

In fact, this hamper is my inspiration for the colour...

Its hard to tell how nice the colour is on the computer. Though it is girly (that's what my man said "It's girly, but as long as your happy with it."). Its pretty cool during the day, the colour changes on the walls, from a pinky purple to more of a lilac in a darker light.

With that done, I am going to put away the paint brushes (thank God!) and try to finish my Christmas shopping (eek!!! only a week to go)!

After the Storm

This is the view from my living room window last night the storm was just picking up...

This is the view this morning...

Very scary. I thought we were snowed in. But I guess we will be spending the day shoveling. Luckily we don't have to be anywhere today:)

Why, Why, Whine

AAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! Driving in the GTA!!

Why do some drivers tailgate? Do they not realize that something that weighs about 4000Lbs and going 60km/h needs some room to stop? Especially after it rains or snows!

Why do some drivers race to the front when there is a lane closure? Are they more important than the rest of us? You know, us nice people who made the lane change early have places to be too!!

Why do some drivers speed no matter what? Sure we've all done 10 over on occasion (okay maybe on more than one occasion). But if you want to do 100km or over go on the highway. Stay out of residential/school zones with your speed racer. By the way - your morning commute is not a race. Most of the rest of us on the road are just trying to get to work in one piece.

Why, why, why do SO MANY people brake at green lights? Sure scan the intersection. I'm sure you can do this without coming to a stop. If you are doing this because you are lost - pull over and check your map or ask someone. Just get out of the way.

Why do some drivers come to a full and complete stop at a red light, only to decide that there is no cross traffic so they're gonna go through anyway. The light is red for a reason. If the intersection was meant to be used that way there would be stop signs instead of lights. But then again these kinds of drivers probably don't stop at those...they're there for everyone else, right???

That's all the Why, Why, Whining for today.

So Far...

We painted the computer room. Much better!! We are still waiting on the bedroom paint. I want to get it done - yesterday!!!

Here are the pics ...The computer room before

And after...



I'm really liking it. Much cleaner and brighter. Happy, not dungeon-like.

Some art/posters I'm waiting to put up. I am happy that the Monroe poster (custom framed by my dad!!) matches so well with the computer room paint.



Bee heard that I was posting some pics on the blog so she just had to get in there for a shot!





I can't wait to get rid of the dark green....

Finally...

We finally have the paint to start the computer room and primer for the bedroom. I am so happy I won't have to be in a yucky green room anymore. I painted the computer room trim yesterday, and am feeling a bit sore. (I helped a friend with yard work on Saturday - all the lifting started the soreness). But I can't stop now...I wonder if I'm gonna drive my fiance nuts?!! Because I want everything done yesterday...lol.

Before and after pics to follow.

Bride of Frankenstein

I had a dream the other morning about my up coming wedding. In the dream my fiance kept seeing me in my dress. My dress was too big and had no shape to it. I still seemed calm in this dream. Finally, I found a mirror and realized I hadn't done my hair and make-up. I didn't look like a bride at all, just everyday no make-up and flat hair. Maybe, I'm just nervous about getting everything together (and I do need a haircut, I keep putting it off). But if I'm nervous now, 7 months before the big day, how nervous will I be a month before? Maybe we should have just eloped!!! LOL

Of course, since I don't recall feeling much stress in the dream - it could just mean that a wedding isn't going to change me. I'm still going to be me, just with a different last name.

Going Crazy

I had been holding my breath waiting for this to happen.

My fiance and I originally wanted to elope. Then we thought of our mothers and grandmothers and thought better of it. Surely these people would have to be with us on our special day.

So we made a guest list of approx. 30 people. Thats plenty big enough for me - I'm shy and quite anxious in crowds. If I'm gonna be the center of attention, then the smaller the group the better for me.

But of course the families start to feel guilty because EVERY member of the family isn't on the guest list. We have to put our foot (feet? lol) down. However, I am willing to compromise with both sides. Each family can add two more couples each to our guest list. End of story. But even still I'm feeling a bit anxious. I don't want to upset anyone. Even if it is my wedding!

Dum Dum DeDum

The wedding plans are coming along thanks to help from our families. We are trying to keep this wedding as inexpensive as possible without it being "cheap". Thanks to the 'venue' (my fiance's mom's house) and the food (Baba's cooking, need I say more). We are already saving a bundle.

A homemade CD will be played at the reception. I just hope I put enough music on it to keep everyone entertained long enough.

I found these really cute DIY invitation kits at the dollar store. If my mom and I can do a good job on them, we will have spend $1 for 5 invites. Sounds better than $1 each, which is pretty much what my online research told me they cost if ordered.

So, I'm guessing but I believe taking care of those two things ourselves saved us a couple hundred dollars. Cha-ching!!

I'm kind of proud about doing this wedding frugally. Especially after watching some of those wedding shows like Bridezilla. Scary stuff. I don't understand why these women turn into spoiled children. Sure it's "their day". Doesn't mean they have to make everyone hate them and spend all that cash.

On one episode I watched the bride kept having mini tantrums everytime she wanted something, which was usually the most expensive of the selections offered her. The poor mom, footing the bill, caved in everytime. Guess we know why her girl is such a little Brat -- "but I'm a princess"...

I didn't find these shows helpful at all. They just made me want to see the groom run and the bride's parents swing her over their knee and give her the spanking she deserved.

I plan on detailing my wedding expenses on this blog - with wedding photos- to show other soon-to-be brides that the real purpose of a wedding is love and family union. NOT to have the largest debt at the start of your new lives together.

For all you formerly frugal brides I would love some suggestions. I'm still wondering about a cake. Party favors and centerpieces (my future mother-in-law did say she has an abundant supply of fake flowers)... please send help :)

Love Is All You Need

That ^ was my handle on a website called Plenty 0f Fish, an online dating site. I met my man on there...and now after almost 2 years together we are getting married.

May 24th we will have a small ceremony at my future mother-in-law's home. I chose May, because it seems to be somewhat of an unspoken tradition. Both my mom and her mom got married in May. All three of us also have our birthdays in May.

I'm excited and nervous and a bit stressed about the whole thing. I'm sure it would have been easier to run to one of those little chapels of Love for a quicky wedding. I felt some of the family would be disappointed not being able to witness the event. I would've been disappointed not having my family around too. So from a girl who hates weddings (ok, hate is a harsh word - I was just always dateless at the weddings I have attended. Maybe that made me a bit bitter.) I'm trying to plan a nice one.

It is very easy to get distracted from my original plans when I visit some of these wedding planning sites that start guiding us young brides into spending a fortune. So sometimes my Fiance, or my mom must remind me to keep it simple and not add unneeded expenses, like a pro photographer in a time where most people have digital cameras (excepting my technologically deficient parents). That could cost $500 to $1000 from what I have read.

And the food. My very talented Baba has offered to cater the event at the traditional Ukrainian family rate!! I told this to the guy who lives in the basement. He's recently sampled Baba's cabbage rolls and is very happy he's invited to the wedding - just for the food.

So...The officiant is booked. The location is at a family members. Right now I'll just concentrate on getting my dress (the picture is my ideal dress - now to find it for my ideal price). Oh and then what will I do with my hair? And flowers? The guest list? Readings? Oh My!!!

Hello Goodbye

A couple of weeks ago we kidnapped the 6 week old kittens that were born outside. We've had fun socializing them and having cuteness in our front porch. We had hoped that someone would adopt them. We had a "Free Kittens" sign out front and I had posted some pics on Facebook. Lots of neighbours stopped by to see them. Some people on Facebook said they were interested. But alas we still have all three in our front porch. So, sadly today we must go to the Toronto Humane Society http://www.torontohumanesociety.com/, where they are already overloaded with unwanted cats and dogs - and McGuinty isn't helping the matter (see the THS website for more on the lack of concern for animals).
So today I bid a fond farewell to Murray, Jeb and Pie! I hope they find good homes. Oh, and so you don't think we're dumb we are taking in the mommy cat too! I hope Cupid finds a good home too. I'm gonna miss them all.

Summer's going Fast

Wow, August 21 already! Where has the time gone? This summer I didn't get out much, but my man and I went to the nice parks around the area. We watched all the cats grow, and some were born. We moved upstairs into the light. My pops had his birthday - and gained a new library. Man! Do we ever know how to shop for that man :)

My work schedule has been slow. Therefore it has been a case of lots of time, but no money to do much with it. Story of my life :)

There has always been something about the end of August that always makes me feel sad. Kinda like Sundays make me feel. Must be a school day feeling, because I do love Autumn. All the beautiful colours. The ending of a cycle where everything prepares to rest until Spring.

It's what follows in our great country of Canada. Cold and snow. Salt stains in everyone's entry ways. Wearing heavy coats, so even if you do wear a really cute sweater (say that you bought at Value Village for a really good price), Who's gonna see it? The poor strays staying in the cold outdoors. (though my man and I have fixed up a shelter for our guys.) Winter is just not something I look forward to.

For now I will just think for today...looks like rain today, not snow. Perhaps we will be able to go walking in the park after work...